I've been feeling this since earlier this year.

Frankly speaking i am honestly haven't get used to the environment without friends around me. Unlike them, i couldn't go out.. i am too busy with sports, piano, etc..

Looking at their hang out photo's kinda make me feel jealous.. and depressed.
I feel left out. Ignored.

They didn't even called or text me.. the only thing they did was sending messages on Facebook saying

"Miss you so much!"

But when i asked them "when can we hangout? :D"

...

"Sorry, i can't"
"I have plans"

=(

It's okay. Maybe it's just me.. I really hope so.

Can't wait for college life. New environment, new subjects, and perhaps.. new friends.

I've moved on to blog in Blogspot. But i will keep on watching LJ..hahaha

-totally random.. >.>

I know i should be studying at this very moment.. sigh. But i couldnt cuz somehow, somethings bothering me..a lot.
i'm glad that no one are actually reading my LJ.. well at least i think so...

SPM will come and eventually will be OVER SOON.. High school and all of that crazy stuff i've done with friends will be history. If only i could turn back times, i'll turn it over and over and over again. I don't care. There are a few moments where i hated to see back then, but when i recall it back.. i knew bursting into regretful tears won't change a thing anymore.

I'm just glad i don't have to live a painful high school life. Friends have been helping me with so many stuff. I could've thank them straight forwardly, but that's just not my style. I show people my feelings with reactions. I don't play with words. I just don't know how. And maybe, that's why i've been so frustrated over things.. i don't know how to tell others how it really felt like.. because i really don't have any idea how to do it..
or maybe..i could've just learn some new verbs... hahahah!

It shocks me when some of my friends told me something i seriously didn't know.. such like;

"You've changed"
"How??"
"Before, you only stick to one person.. but now, it's as if everyone in school is your clique!"
"really? I didn't know that.."
"Duh, everyone knows you.."

Is that really true or just some flaterring compliments? LOL
It doesn't matter to me. Honestly, i hate it when people talk bad behind me. But i keep saying, "It's okay, i'm used to backstabers.."
It's a lie. Pure lie. No one will ever get used to backstabbers.. NO ONE. But i said it to everyone who've been asking and it hurts when i said so. Reason why i said those words is because i don't want to get attached to those painful feelings. Yeah...

Midnight is 2 minutes away.. tommorow will be another memorable school day. Better get to sleep.

OMG! *NOSEBLEED* lol, i finally get to upload the lyrics here...

I wish i was Cherry!!...
 

( Mayonaka no shadow boy lyrics )</div>

I know i wrote it in my blog that i won't be coming online UNTIL 1st Dec... My parents aren't home, as well as my siblings. I only have my cat to talk with!! Now, isn't that just SAD!?

( Anyway.... )

Ohh man, it's been raining.. The weather is fine in fact , rainy scent+pillow= Zzzzz... LOL
( One reason for my camera's existence is for... )

Hahaha... guess what.. i passed out today... LOL